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I doubt that if Anna Nicole would have been around for it, that she would have been sending Virgie Arthur a Mother’s Day card. Unless they sell cards with nail bombs inside of them. In the latest revelation from her memoirs, the description Anna Nicole paints of her relationship simply adds to the whole theory that maybe they didn’t get along so well. These journal pages are different ones than the ones that were recently auctioned off for half a million dollars and will be posted online, according to a representative for Universal Rarities, the company that plans on auctioning off the 60 handwritten pages.

One entry begins, “I’m a very sad person,” and is illustrated by a weeping face. Smith goes on to write that “my mom hates me so much. She is so jealous of me. … I love my mom but I cant handle it anymore.”

One thing that did lift her spirits, though, was the prospect of her breast-enhancement surgery.

“I’m so excited I could scream. Ahhhhh I just feel so happy,” Smith writes, although she later expresses worry about the imminent operation and how she’ll look.

Hey, fake boobs are a girl’s best friend. She also expresses surprise and trepidation over the news that she had become pregnant with her son, Daniel, stating, “Can’t do it!” As much as I joke, I have a feeling my diaries (were I not so incredibly lazy and actually kept some) would probably be just as simplistic. I can see the headlines after my death, “Lisa Timmons Obsessed with Cupcakes and Netflix!” I’m really into seeing my name in headlines lately…