Shawn Mendes has revealed he is afraid of being the bad guy in his relationship with Camila Cabello after the pair recently had an argument.
During an appearance on the Man Enough podcast, Mendes recalled, โI raised my voice at her and she was like, โI donโt like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?โ And I got so defensive.โ
Shawn went on, โI was like, โI wasnโt raising my voice at you!โ And I did raise my voice at her. And I felt her shrink and I felt me grow and I was like, โOh god, this is the worst.โ Iโm so terrified of being evil. Iโm so scared to be bad. I donโt want to be bad.โ

The couple then โhad to get in this massive conversationโ about this deep-rooted fear, because he didnโt want to be perceived negatively.
โMaybe there even is bad inside of me, and I have to just accept that,โ he admitted on the podcast. โAnd that other part of me, heโs just got to be here and weโve just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and heโs OK. But I canโt avoid the fact that thereโs a little bit of darkness inside of me and letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling.โ

After he opened up to Camila, she comforted him. This taught Shawn yet another lesson, as he realized that when youโre โbeing vulnerableโ after a fight, youโre really โjust defending yourself even better.โ
โI made it about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me,โ he reflected. โAnd then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, โGod, that was a whole thing and Iโm really sorry.'โ

When asked what Cabello would define as his greatest strength, Mendes said it was his ability, to be honest. โMy greatest strength, I think she would say is my truth, my ability to be honest, tell the truth,โ he said. โI think she would say my weakness is my commitment to being a good guy.โ