Actor Colton Haynes gets personal in a new interview for Attitude magazine’s 25th anniversary issue.
“In 10 years, there were maybe 25 days I didn’t drink,” Haynes recalled during the interview. “I remember when I started, it was a couple glasses of wine, and it regressed into really dark times.”
The Teen Wolf actor admitted in the past he would blame his drinking and using drugs on his anxiety and depression, but his problems only grew worse when he came out of the closet in 2016, and his marriage to celebrity florist Jeff Leatham ended in divorce after six months.
While this was happening, his mother passed away, too.
“At that point I fell apart,” Haynes added. “My brain broke. I was doing a massive comedy for a studio, showed up to work and got fired on the first day. They said I looked as if I had ’dead in my eyes’, and I did.”
“I got so heavily involved with drugs and alcohol to mask the amount of pain I was feeling that I couldn’t even make some decisions for myself. I was drowning in my own shit.”
Haynes has now been sober for six months, but he told Attitude about his lowest point: When he was found in a L.A. hotel room after a week-long drug and alcohol binge.
“I locked myself in a hotel room at the Waldorf Astoria in Beverly Hills for seven days and was found in my room with these insane bruises all over my body,” he recalled. “It looked as if somebody had beaten the shit out of me. I couldn’t walk, so I was falling everywhere.”
He also admitted that he almost ruptured his kidney, and “ended up in 5150 psych hold [a way to keep someone in hospital involuntarily for up to three days when there is a ’serious need’].”
“I lost partial sight in my left eye for a while. I ended up having two seizures. I didn’t know any of this was happening until I was sober enough to remember it,” he explained. “I was on such a destructive path that I could not function.”
Haynes is now sober and is loving it, adding that his life “is much more beautiful than I could have imagined.”
“It’s just a different life now. It’s the best gift I’ve ever been given.”
Congratulations to Colton on getting his shit together. Just remember, there is always a way out of the darkness.