Amanda Bynes is finally telling her story, in a really moving and lays it all out there in an interview for Paper’s “Break the Internet” issue.
In the interview with the magazine, Bynes gets candid about why she spent the last several years out of the spotlight… and whether she’s ready for a comeback.
Here are a few highlights.
What happened after she decided to quit acting: “I just had no purpose in life. I’d been working my whole life and [now] I was doing nothing. I had a lot of time on my hands and I would ‘wake and bake’ and literally be stoned all day long. [I started] hanging out with a seedier crowd and I isolated a lot . . . I got really into my drug usage and it became a really dark, sad world for me.”
Those troubling sporadic tweets: “I’m really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back time but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad. Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter. It’s definitely not Twitter’s fault — it’s my own fault.”
Advice for anyone who might relate to her experience: “My advice to anyone who is struggling with substance abuse would be to be really careful because drugs can really take a hold of your life. Everybody is different, obviously, but for me, the mixture of marijuana and whatever other drugs and sometimes drinking really messed up my brain. It really made me a completely different person.”
What the future holds: “I have no fear of the future. I’ve been through the worst and came out the other end and survived it so I just feel like it’s only up from here.”
Head over to Paper for the full story and photo spread.
