Brad Pitt talks addiction and a haunting recurring nightmare

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Brad Pitt not only gave up alcohol following his split from Angelina Jolie, he also stopped smoking cigarettes during the pandemic while focusing on his health.

Pitt talks with GQ about loneliness, quitting alcohol and cigarettes, and reveals a recurring nightmare that tormented him for years. Pitt also says heโ€™s in the midst of designing the final chapter of his career.

Pitt, who is in the midst of a divorce from Angelina Jolie, reflected on overcoming loneliness. โ€œI always felt very alone in my life,โ€ he said, โ€œalone growing up as a kid, alone even out here, and itโ€™s really not till recently that I have had a greater embrace of my friends and family. Whatโ€™s that line, it was either Rilke or Einstein, believe it or not, but it was something about when you can walk with the paradox, when you carry real pain and real joy simultaneously, this is maturity, this is growth.โ€

The leading man has found joy in recent years, saying, โ€œI think joyโ€™s been a newer discovery, later in life. I was always moving with the currents, drifting in a way, and onto the next. I think I spent years with a low-grade depression, and itโ€™s not until coming to terms with that, trying to embrace all sides of self โ€” the beauty and the ugly โ€” that Iโ€™ve been able to catch those moments of joy.โ€

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Ottessa confesses, โ€œMy heart just might be broken. So when I feel things, when my heart is activated, it hurts.โ€

Pitt profoundly tells her, โ€œI think all our hearts are broken.โ€

The 58-year-old is also on a mission to improve his health. After he tried cutting back on smoking, Brad finally quit altogether.

โ€œI donโ€™t have that ability to do just one or two a day,โ€ he said. โ€œItโ€™s not in my makeup. Iโ€™m all in. And Iโ€™m going to drive into the ground. Iโ€™ve lost my privileges.โ€

Heโ€™s also been sober since Jolie filed for divorce in 2016. Pitt said he attended Alcoholics Anonymous meetings for over a year, sharing, โ€œI had a really cool menโ€™s group here that was really private and selective, so it was safe. Because Iโ€™d seen things of other people, like Philip Seymour Hoffman, who had been recorded while they were spilling their guts, and thatโ€™s just atrocious to me.โ€

Then there is the nightmare he was able to overcome. Pitt explained the scenario to Moshfegh in an email.

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He wrote, โ€œFor a solid four or five years there, the most predominant dream I would experience would be getting jumped and stabbed. It would always be at night, in the dark, and I would be walking down a sidewalk in a park or along a boardwalk and as Iโ€™d pass under an Exorcist-like street lamp, someone would jump out of the abyss and stab me in the ribs. Or Iโ€™d notice I was being followed and then another flanked me and I realized I was trapped, and they meant me grave harm. Or being chased through a house with a kid Iโ€™d help escape but got pinned in on the deck โ€” and stabbed. Always stabbed. And I would awake in a terror. I didnโ€™t understand why it/they would want to hurt me. This stopped a year or two ago only when I started going straight back into the dream and asking simply why?โ€

Pitt went on to explain how he was able to dissect the dream and get past it.

โ€œMy interpretation of the stabbing dreams were on the surface about fears, feeling unsafe, completely alone โ€” but beneath it all they mostly seemed to be about buried needsโ€”those aspects of self that werenโ€™t allowed to bloom as a child โ€” like healthy anger, individuality, or especially a voice.โ€

Now, heโ€™s looking ahead to the future in front of and behind the camera.

Check out the full profile on GQ.com. Pittโ€™s next film, Bullet Train, hits theaters on August 5.



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